One year, 2 months and 3 days.
A total of 429 days of heaven.
6,17,760 Hours of pure bliss.
3,70,65,600 minutes or love.
2,22,39,36,000 seconds of complete happiness.
It just wasn't enough.
It couldn't possibly ever be.
You were every bit of me.
You took up and made home in every living thought that crossed my mind.
You still do.
You always will. I promise.
Have you ever seen the happiness of a mother when she gazes at her child for the very first time?
That was how i looked at you.
You were my son.
My little, gorgeous and super naughty but beyond intelligent, baby boy.
You did and always will complete mommy.
No mother could ever imagine the pain of losing her child.
She wouldn't dare to and i hope she doesn't have to . . .
Simply because i did.
I lost you, right in my arms. Forever.
Even when i was giving you CPR, your smiled. You were breathing for mommy and as soon as i moved my hands for the doctor to come in. . We lost you.
Till your last moment, you were mommy's brave and obidient little munchkin.
Mommy is very thankful to have had you in her life.
I still hug those Tshirts you wore or smell your brushes and Collar.
I still carry your favourite toy in my bag, everywhere.
I still hug them tight and kiss them, looking for you. . .hoping to feel you there.
I haven't been able to step out in the balcony or the terrace till date because i just cannot.
I just loved you soo much and the emptiness there would just eat me alive.
Oh, what i would give to just feel your paw in my hand.
I would give away anything in the whole wide world just to hold you again and to feel that level of selfless love again in my life.
You completed me ane now i'm this barren piece of flesh which is beyond just broken and empty.
I wanted to write about this but i just couldn't and now as i am, every word respresents my soul and every line is filling up on my emotions with tears and the sharp pain of a deep and tremendous loss.
I miss your smile.
I miss how you would wag your tail and bark from the balcony when you saw me return home.
I miss how you would run to me and lick my face.
I miss how you would irritate me for a bite out of everything i ate.
I miss how you made me feel like the most essential person in the world.
I miss how naughty and fluffy you were.
I miss everything.
I love you Joe-pie, i always will.
Forever, Always and Beyond.
A total of 429 days of heaven.
6,17,760 Hours of pure bliss.
3,70,65,600 minutes or love.
2,22,39,36,000 seconds of complete happiness.
It just wasn't enough.
It couldn't possibly ever be.
You were every bit of me.
You took up and made home in every living thought that crossed my mind.
You still do.
You always will. I promise.
Have you ever seen the happiness of a mother when she gazes at her child for the very first time?
That was how i looked at you.
You were my son.
My little, gorgeous and super naughty but beyond intelligent, baby boy.
You did and always will complete mommy.
No mother could ever imagine the pain of losing her child.
She wouldn't dare to and i hope she doesn't have to . . .
Simply because i did.
I lost you, right in my arms. Forever.
Even when i was giving you CPR, your smiled. You were breathing for mommy and as soon as i moved my hands for the doctor to come in. . We lost you.
Till your last moment, you were mommy's brave and obidient little munchkin.
Mommy is very thankful to have had you in her life.
I still hug those Tshirts you wore or smell your brushes and Collar.
I still carry your favourite toy in my bag, everywhere.
I still hug them tight and kiss them, looking for you. . .hoping to feel you there.
I haven't been able to step out in the balcony or the terrace till date because i just cannot.
I just loved you soo much and the emptiness there would just eat me alive.
Oh, what i would give to just feel your paw in my hand.
I would give away anything in the whole wide world just to hold you again and to feel that level of selfless love again in my life.
You completed me ane now i'm this barren piece of flesh which is beyond just broken and empty.
I wanted to write about this but i just couldn't and now as i am, every word respresents my soul and every line is filling up on my emotions with tears and the sharp pain of a deep and tremendous loss.
I miss your smile.
I miss how you would wag your tail and bark from the balcony when you saw me return home.
I miss how you would run to me and lick my face.
I miss how you would irritate me for a bite out of everything i ate.
I miss how you made me feel like the most essential person in the world.
I miss how naughty and fluffy you were.
I miss everything.
I love you Joe-pie, i always will.
Forever, Always and Beyond.
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