Confusion

Confused regarding feelings
Confused about love,
Confused about things
Like the flight of a dove.

Maturity confuses my mind
Imagination hits me hard,
I could play the queen
Yet you, my king always hold the higher card.

Your hand binds my soul
Your fingers control my heart,
Your actions might be cold
But your eyes are warm enough to tear me apart.

Is it magic?
How even just your smile
makes my heart melt
Or is it a lie so tragic?

When you hold my hand,
it's you i wish to understand.
my mind wants your touch
My heart still longs for a smile and not much.