I DONT KNOW WHY..

i dont know why do words always slip
when something important needs to be said
Is there something wrong with my head?
i dont know why does my mind 
just feels so dead.
 is this what paralysis feels like
or is my brain just going up for a hike..
is it like a midlife phase?
or am i just losing my mind in a haze?
Lifes not easy..thats for sure..
words dont push me ahead anymore.
they say education is what we need to be seen
yet i dont know why i feel so unseen  
i just dont know why.